Tougher than Tough

Since being sick for a week over Thanksgiving I've been battling migraines, massive shoulder tension and nausea on a daily basis.  My body isn't happy with the fact I had to lay on the couch on a week while sick (yeah, me neither buddy).  It's challenging to push through this crappy time.  If all goes well and I eat all the macro-nutrients, and do all the movement things, this pattern of pain and nausea will be replaced by awesome-town in a week.  Until then I get to tell myself to suck it up and go anyway.  

There was talk of cancelling the group night ride last night due to weather, so I packed up my Go Pro and my bike for a solo adventure around the Dallas levees in the afternoon. 

 Dallas skyline taken under the freeway.

Dallas skyline taken under the freeway.

Once I got on my bike I was certain I'd layered poorly.  It was freaking cold, and the levees were empty.  On a cold, overcast day, a deserted levee is fertile ground for an active imagination. By the time I made it underneath the freeway I'd scouted a few solid locations for the next True Detective, and yells from the murder of crows in the background completed the soundscape.  Yes, my un-tasked mind is dramatic, but the more important part of the story is that I was riding my bike despite feeling like crud.

 Trail sign along the paved section of the park.

Trail sign along the paved section of the park.

 Riding gravel in the Dallas levee.

Riding gravel in the Dallas levee.

Black and white photo of bike in Dallas - Jami Clayman.jpg
Jami Clayman biking in Dallas.jpg
Overhead view of my bike cockpit on a gravel ride in Dallas.jpg

After 40 minutes I circled back.  I was ready for some smooth pavement. But first, I needed to make it up a little climb for smoother gravel.  And what greeted me at the top?  A sign to tell me I was tough.  After I got home and looked closer at the billboard in the photo I now see that the sign is talking about the toughness of caregivers. But I think the sign still applied to me suffering in the cold, choosing to take care of myself.

 Isn’t this area of Dallas scenic?

Isn’t this area of Dallas scenic?

Even when it's not fun, when I feel like crud, and when the weather isn't awesome, it pays to do the the thing.  Push through the crummy parts because of what it makes of me.  Plus, I really want this head pain to go away.

P.S.  It did!  An hour after I awoke the next day I felt awesome!  Now to get on my bike and ride before the goodness leaves again.